Here we go… yet another polarizing topic that I’m being called to share.
If you had told me this statement a week ago, I would have fought you to the end. I am a Capricorn, and my entire life has been based on setting goals, achieving them, then setting new goals. But when my dear friend recently reminded me of this truth, I finally understood: there is a divine plan, and we often get in the way of it.
As I racked my brain to disprove him, I was shown a memory of the last man I dated: he was every single thing on my highly-edited ‘list’…. and he was terrifying. TERRIFYING. When we broke up, I feared for my life.
There is a karmic exchange for everything. #blackmagic
I thought to all the businesses I’d started, the friendships and relationships I had forced, the houses I’d bought out of sheer will... there was a consistent level of frustration, blocks inevitably presented, and I rarely felt the sense of achievement or peace I’d wished for.
Until last year.
2017 marked the beginning of a new journey and understanding of the flow state; for the first time I tasted what was possible. As 2018 approached, I asked to know full surrender. My three weeks since in Tulum have been 10 times more intense than any of my plant journeys. Why? Because my ego refused to surrender to the larger plan.
When Manech Ibar told me to surrender completely to God’s path and plan, I cried because I knew it was the truth. I knew that all my affirmations, lists, visualizations and manifestations were born from sheer will and a waste of time and energy. How insane to think that my limited perception could even TOUCH that of God’s.
Say yes when clear. Listen to the lovely voice that guides you, and ignore the destructive one. Learn to be comfortable in the in between. Take leaps of faith when called, especially when the support system seems invisible.
You won’t fall. You couldn’t.
It’s just a dream.
Row row row my boat gently down the stream,